Seven Weeks

 I got my ring back!

I guess the gig was a test & I passed? Not sure how I feel about that but at least my hard work is paying off finally, I suppose.

Been having cravings the past few days but managing to hold strong. Did get as far as opening a bottle the other day, but it smelled bad & I realised it really wasn't worth it. Everything is finally coming together again & I'm no longer crying on & off every single day, so now really isn't the time to heck everything up.

Have another gig this week, think I'm just going to see how it goes. I'm pretty surprised I've made it to seven weeks & only had one pint in that time. The more sober time banked, the less worth it having a drink seems.

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